Today I feel is a good day to die

Good day to all my PERCEPTIONISTS 💙 and to all new huns, welcome to the family. Today I feel is a good day to die.

I’m sure y’all are all wondering where I’ve been and what I’ve been up to, and yall are about to find out. I wanted to share this poem as it should most probably be the last one I post this year. I promise this piece will definitely step on some toes and will evoke alot of questions, for some of my followers who are on WhatsApp, please do share the link as much as possible and encourage a reader today💙 and to every other follower I have please also share the link, like and comment, I will be replying on the comments section as I dont have the chat anymore. I hope you enjoy the read💙.

As I Ascend To The Heavens, Remember Me

I dream of a day where my heart will stop beating for you
but everyday it keeps betraying me and keeps thudding for you. I dream of a day where my mind stops thinking of you, but it keeps painting canvases of your wretched smile and when I try to tell you of my crocked art work you tell me I’m retarded. But relentless my body still longs your warmth even on the hottest summer evening, I still thirst your bitter words form hatreds spear and it spares me no wounds, it keeps jabbing in a dance like its on some sort of trance and it wont stop until I’m drained out of blood and I’m an empty corpse filled with heartache words and lies as I lie on that steel bed and they dissect my heart like a lab rat they found a replica you felt there.
Cause not only did you steal my life you also took my heart. I gave you my being so that your beginning could be my end but that still wasnt enough, I wasnt enough, all I was still wasnt enough to spare me from your wrath, for the mistake i made was one any human can make but because of my chastity you could never accept I had become an impurity for stepping outside the gruesome boundaries you set up for me, I’m sad you had left me for I had plans to elevate us but that’s okay, it’s the punishment I deserve for mistakes I can not change, but for what it’s worth, i still need to apologize for all the hurt i caused you inside.
In my defence I have an excuse but that’s not enough for all the pain I’ve caused you. Have you weighed it against the pain you caused me or when you’re hurt only you are the factor. It petty I should mention, but I really think I should be given the benefit of the doubt but your beating heart should decide upon the one you have clenched in your hand, but make it quick, the longer you keep my heart the closer I’m getting to permanent death but before I die, remember this, I loved your entire being with my entire being, no questions, no stories, no doubts, no judgement, while some called me stupid, naive and outright insane, I knew I never seen a greater love, no matter the consequence, no matter the depth of your mistakes, I loved you for you, not your mistakes. I
dream of a day where my heart will stop beating for you
but everyday it keeps betraying me and keeps thudding for you. I dream of a day where my mind stops thinking of you, but it keeps painting canvases of your wretched smile and when I try to tell you of my crocked art work you tell me I’m retarded.

Noms❤

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