He Said…

I thought, I’d post once a day, but in light of this lockdown, this piece goes out to every woman and every child stuck at home, because they stayed after _He Said_….

He Said

I love you he said….
These words sounded bitter sweet In my ears because my tympanic membrane knew the symphonies of these words that turned to sourness…
I love you he said.. my body shivered because I knew these words but they turned into bashes, bruises that were built-in my body and a heart put together with duck tape he didnt even have the audacity to try and stick it together with glue for it to look like fine art, I guess he’s intention was to temporarily save in the back side of he’s closeted mind until he finds a new one to use…
He said I love you and I was afraid because fear was instilled in me when i sat on that church bench and sang songs like amazing grace after being told you need to fear God in order for him to love you… I was taught fear is love and I loved the idea so I fell in love with fear that could easily shut me up when my conscious mind tried to speak up for my broken heart…
He said I love you and blinded by fear that was love I accepted the challenge of making him love me back in fear I was slapped by the reality of his hand when I laid on that bed and he opened my thighs to a possibility of lies and I couldn’t convince the truth…. He said I love and in those words I heard the sweet sound of sorrow from my past

_Noms_

… Stay Safe❤